12 Weeks

Well, I have made it to 12 weeks. I had an appointment yesterday and everything is looking good. I know that most women are relieved once they hit 12 weeks and feel that they can stop worrying. That is how I used to be. Now, I know I won't be able to relax until our baby is safe in my arms. I am incredibly grateful that we are being blessed with another chance so quickly. However, I feel like I have been pregnant FOREVER, and I still have a long time to go. Maybe it won't be so bad once I start feeling better? I have been nauseous most of the day-every day, extremely tired, emotional, and have experienced most of the normal pregnancy symptoms. Plus, you can't sleep all day when you have a toddler to take care of! One of the things I didn't think about was dealing with some of my grief on top of being overly emotional. It hasn't been easy. I am sure my hormones have added to it but, woah! What an emotional year it has been!

Hopefully our rainbow baby (a baby after a loss) will add new light and hope to our family next year. What a blessing it will be to finally hold MY OWN baby in my arms again. I can't wait to watch Carter be a big brother. He is so cute around babies right now. He talks to them in a hight pitched cute voice and says, "Hi little baby..." then touches them softly or gets their binky for them (one of his own prized possessions). He still doesn't really know what is going on, but I'm sure when it gets closer and my belly gets bigger he will get the clue. Speaking of my belly... are you kidding me? I don't know if it is because I didn't have much time inbetween pregnancies (even though I did boot camp and worked out a ton), or if it's the fact that I am on baby number #3 but I feel like as soon as I was pregnant I was poking out like I was 5 months pregnant. It's fine, it's just faster than I have poked out in the past.

Anyway, that is the update. We should be able to find out what we are having in the next 4 weeks if the baby cooperates. What a long 4 weeks it is going to be...